Since my awakening experience in 2000, I've had a number of spiritual experiences. Some of them are described in this chapter.
In 2002 I recall waking up one night and seeing an image covering much of the bedroom wall. In the center was a very large white bird, one I had never seen before. Emanating from it were golden rays. It seemed that the rays were alive.
In 2003 I remember another experience very well. It was close to Easter. While meditating, I asked Jeshua about how he rose from the dead. I began to feel a sensation within my body, starting at my feet and moving to my head. This happened over and over and as it occurred, I also felt a vibration that became stronger until it included my whole body. Then everything was gone. I believe that in answer to my question, he showed me.
January 10, 2004: While meditating, saw my spirit animal, a white rabbit. I followed it to a log cabin in the forest. A spiritual being who opened the door was tall and wore all white. I did not see a face or body. There was a group of others behind the being, between 10 and 15. I remember someone with dark hair. The main being felt like male energy. He walked over and stood in front of me. He had no form that I could see, just white. Others came behind him. I asked their names and who they were. I don't remember the answers. I asked to see their faces and talk with them to validate the experience and ensure I wasn't making it up.
January 13, 2004: During meditation I had the following experience. A white rabbit took me to a cabin in the forest. The door was open and I went in and sat down. Jeshua sat down next to me. His energy felt caring, comfortable and natural. He brought the others from before, the same group I saw in the January10th dream.
Next, I was in the forest with my spirit animal, the white rabbit. There was a gazebo and my deceased mother and deceased brother were sitting inside. I asked them to help me with my spiritual goals. I asked why they had left earth. They said they were finished.
February, 2004: In meditation, I sensed the presence of others, asked if they were my guides and they said no. I asked where they were from and they said it was far away. I asked why they had come to me. They said they were observing, experiencing through me. I asked how long they would be with me and they said only a few days. During the next few days, I experienced a lot of confusion about my spiritual path, my purpose for being here and asked for Jeshua's help. It was at time of crisis on the spiritual level. I remember the beings were positive, gentle and came through clearly, not during meditation but while I was going about the day. I didn't experience them after that.
February 17, 2004: During meditation, a man came through from another dimension. He was the same person I have seen before, God in human form in the earthsuit I created in 2000. He took my hand and we went through the same doors I had seen in a dream. Then we were in a different place, it was lovely, no one seemed to be around. We were walking and I saw my (deceased) brother approach. He greeted me, smiling, happy. The man was watching me, interested and caring.
February 20, 2004: I experienced the vibration that I perceived as God's presence. Then the following occurred: I could see with my eyes closed and white dissolved the darkness between my eyes. I saw four or five faces and then it was white again.
2019: When my two dogs were puppies in 2003 I stayed outside with them during the day. It was fun to watch their antics. I would often see a coyote who watched from the other side of the backyard fence. Interestingly, the dogs never barked at it. The coyote and dogs would stand and look at each other. I was convinced that they were communicating. It seemed like a female and I grew to like her very much. She came by most days when we were in the back yard. She would lay on the other side of the fence while we were outside. One day I was at the kitchen sink and I looked out at the back yard. The coyote was laying down on the other side of the fence, just watching. She seemed very content. Sometimes I would see her in front of the house nibbling at grass. She was very pretty.
Twelve years later I was in the backyard with my dogs when that coyote walked up to the fence. I hadn't seen her in a long time. I told her how happy I was to see her and that I loved her. Anyone who has encountered a coyote knows about their intense stare. They stand and look at you, squarely it seems more curious than anything. This day our resident coyote listened to me as I spoke to her and rather than staring, she stood and looked around as I have seen dogs do when they are listening and happy. After she did so for a while, she literally kicked up her heels and skipped off. It was such a joyful experience.
During the following months I didn't see her and hoped that she was still alive, as she would have been at least 14 years old. One day when I was visiting my sister I looked out her living room window and standing in her front yard was the most beautiful coyote I had ever seen. It looked unreal, gorgeous. It stood in her front yard for a while and then left. The neighbors were enthralled, they had never seen a coyote in their residential neighborhood. I believed it was a message that my coyote was in a beautiful place, the place we call heaven.
July 24, 2019: During Theo's automatic writing class exercise I asked Jeshua to come through and waited for a vibration. Then I experienced Jeshua's energy in my heart area. I heard these words: “I am here for you. I am guiding you. I am with you. I speak to you. I am working with you to realize your soul's purpose. I am Jeshua. I am your friend.” I saw that I had not written anything on the paper. I then heard: “This is your way.” I took it to mean that hearing is my way of receiving communication, clairaudience.
August 5, 2019: I have a relic of St. Francis of Assisi. When I held it, I felt a vibration in the area around my ribs. I also felt warmth, a sensation of healing, a gentleness and kindness. St. Francis was known for his love of animals but I did not perceive the presence of animals.
Fall 2019: During meditation I was in what seemed to be a park and Jeshua and I were sitting on a bench. He stood and said: “Let's walk.” Immediately. we were standing somewhere and what was before me was was opaque. I knew God's presence was within it. Jeshua motioned to the opaque area and then to his left where I saw the earthsuit I had created and in which I had seen God in physical form years ago (Creating Reality tab). I believed that Jeshua was communicating God would step into that physical form as I had asked.
January 29, 2020: Today I attended a Reiki session. During that session I had a wonderful spiritual experience. I felt relaxed and was enjoying the energy flow. Then in my mind's eye I saw the image of God as I had created him in earthsuit many years ago. He was standing on my right side, looking at me. Next to him, on his right and slightly behind him was Jeshua. Shortly afterward they were on my left side. I was very happy that he and Jeshua had been present and in a way that I could perceive them. Later I reflected that I had asked Jeshua to help bring him to me in physical form.
April 13, 2020: Three days ago, I heard God ask if I wanted to visit him. I felt his vibration but wondered if I was making it up. Next, many thoughts went through my mind, ending in confusion. What would a visit mean? How would I get there? I stopped trying to figure it out. My answer was yes.
This morning I chose a connection with God and began to meditate. While doing so, in my mind's eye I saw Jeshua. As has been the case several other times, we were sitting on a bench in a beautiful, natural setting. He stood, took me by the hand and we started walking. I recall thinking that I did not want to interfere with whatever would occur, just let it happen. As we walked, I saw God in the earth suit I had created, Jeshua had taken me to him. God greeted me with great love. We walked for a while and then I saw my deceased dog. She ran to me and gave me lots of kisses. I loved seeing her. Next I saw my deceased husband. He was happy and smiling. I ran to him. He said he was very proud of me. I told him that I had always thought that when he was here, that at a deep level he understood my spirituality. I asked him to help me with my spiritual goals.
God and I continued walking. We went through the alternatives within my spiritual goals. I felt that he was saying that the process has begun and will come to be. Then Jeshua returned and God left. I felt that Jeshua was guiding me back and returned me to my conscious mind which coincided perfectly with the ending of my guided meditation. Afterward I realized that I had the visit God had asked me if I wanted two days ago. It was so wonderful. I said I would like to visit again. I also realized that the visit occurred after I had stopped all the busy thoughts running through my mind and just let it go.
May 5, 2020: Last night I heard God ask if I wanted to talk and I said yes. He asked if I would like some tea and said that he is a great tea maker. I said yes but couldn't imagine how a visit would work. Next, we were in the place where he and Jeshua had taken me a number of times. It is a natural setting with trees and water on the right, like a lake. I was with God in the earthsuit I had created and we were sitting on a bench. He poured tea from a container into two cups. They were gray and did not have handles. After a while he said, “I have something to show you.” He put the empty cups into what looked like a backpack, stood and put it over his right shoulder. We started walking. I enjoyed the natural setting and saw squirrels, birds and rabbits. It felt like a calm and happy place. We came to a building that was built in the shape of what sort of looked like an ancient temple. We went inside and I saw a lot of beings. Each one was standing at a table, looking down and doing something. It seemed that they did not see us. I asked where we were and he said that we were in another dimension and they were in a different dimension from us. It felt like what they were doing was spiritually related. Further in the building I saw beings laying on tables. I asked if they were ill and was told that they were undergoing a renewal process.
We continued to walk through the building and came to what seemed like a large room, although I didn't see any dimensions, it felt that way. I saw a group of beings. They did not have form and presented as individual lights. I asked if I had been speaking with them that morning and they responded that we had been talking. It seemed that they were in some way connected with my soul's plan.
They said that before I incarnated in this lifetime it had been part of my plan, my intent, to help others know God, that I had been just as enthusiastic then as I am now and it was commendable, given the current challenges on earth. I asked what their role was and God said they were like overseers.
They said that I had been one of them and had decided to incarnate on earth and help people know God. Then it was over. I felt very happy, like there was a glow around me and that feeling continued through the evening and the next morning. I recalled that in recent years it was my intention to go back and forth between dimensions. That is exactly what was happening and this was one of those experiences. I recalled that this was the second time he had asked if I would like to visit him and realized that it was the visit.
May 27, 2020: This afternoon God asked if I would like to have a picnic and I said yes. A very interesting prospect. How would that occur? The planning was fun, he asked specifically what I would like included in a picnic. I asked about where we would be and he described a very natural setting with lots of flowers, trees and animals. There was water nearby. It was the place where Jeshua had taken me and where I had been with God in the earthsuit a number of times where we had usually walked and talked.
Then we were in that place. Food was laid out and we had a glass of champagne, although I don't remember actually drinking it or eating the food. Later, he asked if I wanted to go swimming. I said I had not planned on it; I did not have a swimsuit. Next, I was in a beautiful white bathing suit with gold trim and amazingly, I was much younger. The water was warm and clear. It felt alive and kind. There were beautiful fish all around us. They did not scatter when we approached them, but rather swam toward us. It felt like they were greeting us. We swam and enjoyed the water. After we stepped out of the water, I realized that I didn't have anything to put over my swimsuit. In the next moment, we were wearing beautiful white robes. It was a wonderful experience.
May 29, 2020: Today I felt God's vibration. He asked if I would like to go on a picnic. The first picnic had been wonderful, so I said, yes. He said Jeshua would join us and I was happy about that. Then we were in the same place as the first picnic and Jeshua was there. Again, food was laid out on a blanket. After we finished eating, Jeshua was gone and we went swimming. We came upon a small waterfall. It was very beautiful. We swam under it and saw a bench where we rested. The picnic was a wonderful experience.
At 7:00 p.m. I decided to do a guided meditation. Releasing fear was the one I chose. I focused on fear-based issues that were bothering me. I asked God and Jeshua to help me. After the meditation I had a wonderful spiritual experience. In my mind, God came to me in the earthsuit I created. He took me by the hand and said, “Let's go somewhere.” I was surprised that we went to the exact garden gate that I had seen in a greeting card so many years ago during my awakening (I remembered that yesterday God had asked if I wanted to go somewhere and I said yes. I asked if I would like it and he said I would love it.)
We entered the garden and then he left, which surprised me. Right after that, Jeshua arrived. He took me by the hand, we walked and ultimately sat on a bench. It was quite lovely. We talked about the issues that were bothering me and I got a general idea of how they would be resolved. Then I saw a number of beings. They were energetic but had enough form that I could make them out. None were human and they were quite varied. They were very kind and respectful. We spoke for a while and then they thanked me for sharing my experiences and left.
Afterward, Jeshua told me that we had been together many times, in many places. Sometimes together and sometimes not. It was always our goal for others to know God. This seemed consistent to me as did the feeling that Jeshua and I know each other. He had confirmed that previously. We sat together for a while. It was very peaceful. I felt very loved and happy in that place which seemed like it might be another dimension.
June 25, 2020: This morning I did several guided meditations. I focused on maintaining a fifth dimensional frequency, controlled thoughts and not having expectations. I meditated and focused on the goals I had established in the morning. Later that morning, at the ranch I saw God in my mind's eye. He was standing near a horse enclosure, turned back toward me and extended his hand, which I took. We stood at the enclosure and I said, “Let's go see the other horses too.” It was a vivid experience but not physical. I was still sitting on my chair while having this experience. It was wonderful.
September 21, 2020: Last week I received an email from a website in which a new greeting card was announced. I checked it out and was amazed that it was a picture of an open garden gate and beyond it a beautiful garden. It was almost exactly the same as the garden where God had taken me in the past.
October 6, 2020: Today the feeling of Jeshua came to me and I thought about a trip I had taken to Israel previously. Several times during the trip deep feelings had come over me. The first was as I was looking down to the Garden of Gethsemane from the Mount of Olives. There was strong energy coming from it, deep emotion, anguish, a little fear and yet resolve emanating from the garden. Tonight, an image came to me that I was in the garden when Jesus was there. He was kneeling. I felt that I was present energetically and put my hand on his head, as if to comfort him. Then I saw him at an earlier time in his life when he was returning from somewhere and walking into his family home. I saw Mother Mary greet him with love and he said “Mother.” I am sure he said it in his native tongue but the word came to me energetically that way. She seemed to be preparing a meal and I saw him take a small bowl of food to the table. Later it seemed that he helped afterward as though clearing of the dishes. His personality was very gentle and sweet.
Another time during the trip to Israel I was moved to tears when we visited the Jordan River. The feeling at the river was not one of sadness as had been the case at the Garden of Gethsemane; rather something like anticipation, excitement. I was deeply moved to tears and not sure why.
The third time I was moved while in Israel was when we were sailing on the Sea of Galilee. This time it was a feeling of happiness. It felt very good. We saw a beautiful sight, the sun shone through the clouds and there were rays on the water.
October 26, 2020: This morning I did several meditations in order to get back to a place of connection with God and Jeshua. I heard God say that he had a surprise for me. I loved it when he said that because I knew something wonderful would happen. That afternoon I began to feel vibration which I recognized as God's. Then I felt light pressure at the top of my head. I had felt this before but did not know what it was. This time it was stronger and more prolonged. A vibration seemed to continue down from my head and throughout my body. I wondered what it meant. Maybe it was in response to my request for a strong connection.
Throughout the day I saw several images pass in what seemed to be my third eye. At times that had occurred after meditation. I would see very quick images pass across the area above my eyes. This time I saw a man I have seen more than once. I also saw a woman who was walking somewhere. They were images without any context. At night I felt a strong connection with God and we had a wonderful conversation. I did not want it to stop.
October 27, 2020: This morning I did Archangel Michael's Holding a Fifth Dimension Frequency meditation. Afterward, in the area above my eyes, I saw Jeshua in his home on earth. I had seen him there before. This time he seemed to be helping clean up after a meal. He looked outside at his siblings who were playing. They seemed to be having a disagreement. He went outside, spoke with them and afterward the matter was resolved.
Tonight I felt God's presence and heard very clearly, “You will have a visitor.” I didn't know what it meant and didn't try to figure it out. That doesn't work, these messages are not of the mind, so the answers are not there. I reminded myself to be patient and it would happen. Later my cousin came through. He had passed previously. He greeted me and we talked for a while. I said I was glad to hear from him, asked how he was and if he was happy. He said that he was, that it was nice there and different, things happen quickly. He said his parents were there. He was glad that I am connected with God and Jeshua. I asked what he does and he said he takes classes sometimes. He asked how I am doing and I said I am doing fine. We talked some more and then he said that he was told it was time to go. I thanked him and said he can drop by anytime. We said that we love each other. I realized that was the visitor I had been told about. Very beautiful.
In 2021, I began hearing that there were others who would like to speak with me. I did not know what that meant and was told that beings in other locations and realms were interested in humanity and our progression to a higher spiritual state of consciousness. I did not always note the date or exact dialog. Most of the time, in my mind's eye I would perceive God standing at the garden gate where we had met other times. As always, he would take my hand and we would walk through the gate into a beautiful place. It did not always look the same but was always a natural place. Sometimes we would walk and talk. When he would say that others would like to meet with me I always agreed and asked that he be present. I asked why they would be interested in me and understood that they were interested in hearing from a human about life on earth because they wanted to help us at this pivotal time. Sometimes they wished to learn more about emotion. Those were the most common topics. This was the process: God would tell me that there were beings who would like to talk with me. Then I would sense that other beings were present. It wasn't a visual setting and the interaction was telepathic. I heard them very clearly. It was like having a conversation with others in the same room. The energy I perceived from them was the same each time: expansive minds, completely focused, immediately taking in and understanding all that I said, respectful, patient, non-judgmental, not egoic, kindly – I would say loving. I always felt comfortable with them. I realized that these meetings were part of what God had described to me in 2020 as his project (God's Spiritual Project tab).
As I reflected on these meetings, I remembered the times my spirit animal, the white rabbit, led me to the forest where I would enter a cabin. There were beings in the cabin with whom there would be a brief interaction. They were not in physical form and presented as light spheres. Now I wonder if that was preparation for the meetings that have begun at the present time.
When get in my car to drive somewhere I ask the angels to surround and protect me and keep me safe. In March 2021, while driving on the freeway I lost consciousness. I hit the car in front of me and caused it to spin in a circle after which my car swerved toward the exit, hit and took out the freeway exit pole. Fortunately, that action caused my car to veer back to the shoulder of the road and stop.Had I not hit the exit pole I would have gone down the hill and into oncoming traffic. When I regained consciousness, I had no recollection of anything that happened, nor do I to this day. My car was totaled and the fact that I was not hurt, nor the others was truly a miracle. I believe the angels were definitely looking after me. It was ultimately determined that the cause of my loss of consciousness was due to arrhythmia which was subsequently controlled through medication.
January 4, 2022: During the night, a very strong image of my spirit animal came to me. I don't remember if it was a dream or whether I was awake. It was very strong, clear, almost startling. I sensed that I should follow it into the forest, as in the past. I went into a cabin in the woods. Other times the door was closed and I knocked or as I approached, someone opened the door. This time was different. The door was open and I entered. As before, there were spheres of light inside the room who I sensed were spiritual beings.
I remember leaving and going to another cabin where God was present in the earthsuit I created. Jeshua might have been there too, and we may have talked.
January 9, 2022: This morning I listened to the Andromeda Galaxy of Light meditation. During the meditation a third eye opening exercise occurred. Then, at that moment I was in the forest, my rabbit guide in front of me and I arrived at the cabin in the woods. The front door was open and I felt invited inside. I perceived other beings there, this time in more form than the spheres of light that I had seen before. Not really physical, although clear enough that I could perceive images. There was a tall one with a rather large head, no hair. Also present was the being I had seen before whom I had named Friend (God's Spiritual Project, Fall 2021). The bird being I had seen before was present and also a tall slender being. I perceived that I was in my light body. I was told that they were part of my galactic family. It was a very pleasant experience and I was pleased because I had not been in a heightened vibrational space.
April 3, 2022: I was still processing an experience in February when God took me to a new place (Channeled Messages to Me February 13, 2020). I saw a being who seemed who seemed to be God. He was ethereal but had form. I imagine I was too, as we had stepped into the new place. Were we in our light bodies?
A little while ago I placed myself in the present and did some breathing. In my mind's eye I saw that being from the new place. He reached out his hand (as God in the earthsuit always had prior to our entering the garden) which I took and then we were in a new place. I was comfortable that we were still who we were previously, but in the new place, in ethereal form. I sensed God's love. We walked in what was a special garden, large flowers, trees that seemed to be alive. Very beautiful. There were animals and a bird landed on my outstretched hand. Next, I saw my deceased parents who said they were proud of me. We talked about my life experiences and that they had prepared me for what is to come. My brother greeted me and it was wonderful. We had always been close. Then an aunt, my maternal grandmother and great-aunt greeted me. They were just as kind and loving as they had been in life. A cousin wanted to come forward. He was supportive about what lies ahead. It seemed that the Arcturians came forward and were enthusiastic about what will occur, that I will bring something helpful to us on Earth. I feel the experience this afternoon was a new step. I was comfortable stepping into the new place.
Tonight, while I was meditating I perceived that I was in another place and my family was present. My mother came forward and said she was sorry she passed when I was at a young age. I told her I totally understood that it was part of the agreement we had before we incarnated. Other family members were there and greeted me, including my father, brother, aunts and grandmothers. Then I saw older ancestors whom I had never known. I saw my deceased husband too. Again, the mood was happy, celebratory. Afterward, God and I returned to the garden where we spent some quiet time. Happy.
March 2, 2023: Today God consoled me about the passing of two horses: “As to your beloved horses, know that they are happy in their new state of being. You are accurate in your perception that they remained on the earth plane, energetically, for a time that day. You were connected with them throughout and your love and support was understood and appreciated. Late in the afternoon Jeshua came to them, as you requested, and took them to a beautiful place, an open field where they could run and play, roll, graze and be happy. They were shown the way to connect, energetically, with the earth plane and experiences. All that they imagined occurred instantly in their new existence. Energetically, they could have the experience of being at the ranch where they had lived their earthly lives, having their experiences and connecting with those they love, including you. They both understood and appreciated your kindness. For Kim especially, it was sustaining. She loves you. Your healing was at the physical and emotional levels. Now she can have all of the experiences at the ranch as well as all that is available in her new realm. Love, joy and happiness. Dollie is with her and experiencing the same.
April 25, 2023: Last night I decided to do the meditation exercise that I had in previous years. As before, in my mind's eye I pictured walking down a long hallway. At the end of it, I looked out and saw my spirit animal, a white rabbit. It started moving forward and I followed it through a wooded area. Then I saw the cabin that I had seen in previous times. I walked through the front door and into an open room. Not sure what I saw, it seemed like lights or energetic beings. Then I went into a smaller room. I asked if God was with me and perceived that he was. I felt that others were present. It seemed that I laid down on something. It felt like something went down from my head to feet, like a scan. Then I felt warmth across the middle of my back. It was very soothing. I asked God for clarification.
"Yes, you were at the cabin and I was with you. As you desire, I am always accompanying you at these times. You took a step forward in opening the front door and walking in. You can go back there at any time, whenever you wish. You stepped out of the hallway and followed the rabbit to the cabin. That was also a step forward. You did not request my presence, holding your hand. I will say that you may do so at any time. Yes, you did perceive others in the large room and also in the smaller room. They were doing energy work with you. You perceived accurately that there was a scan of sorts to enable them to address areas where they could be of assistance. The warm area in your back was their energy engaging and entering your body. They are gentle and loving beings and you sensed that. You did not feel fear at any time and that was progress. You may visit the cabin any time you wish. I will be with you and they will be present. They are very happy to help. You might say it is part of their spiritual project. They wish to help humans progress spiritually to a new level, to that which was planned from the beginning. You are seeking to evolve to a new way of being and they are assisting you. I send you my love and am with you, as always."
May 29, 2023: I woke up at 2:30 this morning. Felt there was a message. I had been told recently that someone new was coming into my life. Yesterday morning as I was awakening, In my mind's eye I saw someone come into my bedroom and then lay down on the chaise lounge. It was a male. Very brief.
June 21, 2023: The other night I experienced God and Jeshua in my mind's eye. It seemed that suddenly I saw God across a room or somewhere outside. It was really wonderful. I called God forth and that occurred. How to get there again.
August 31, 2023: Yesterday afternoon I had a wonderful experience. God met me at the gate and we went into the garden. We walked and then sat down on the bench, as we had sometimes before. I remembered that it seemed like it was important when we did that. This time we sat for a while and it was very comforting, very pleasant. I had been missing the garden and was happy we were here. He told me something was coming. Of course the thoughts began, what could that be. I was told it would not be bad but significant. He asked if I would like to go somewhere. It seemed that we stepped into the place where we had been once before. No definition, just opaque. It was where I had felt myself go up into the air, very freeing. I had seen someone who I thought was God. He was wearing a long white robe.
Then it seemed like we went through that area and stepped into another area. I was there with God in the earthsuit I had created years ago and Jeshua. I was so happy to be with them. I asked where I was and thought I heard that it was the fifth dimension. I don't know if I imagined it or that is what I was told. I was told something to the effect that it was my new level. I was told that experiencing what I call forth would happen more quickly. I was so happy during that experience. I had asked for them to be with me and that occurred in the most wonderful way.
September 22, 2023: After meditation this morning I chose to go to the cabin in the woods and then I was there. I went in and perceived beings of light. It seemed there were several who appeared as spheres of light. One came forward and I saw a form. It was a tall being I had seen previously and it seemed to engage the experience. Then there was another being, not in form, who came forward energetically and said it was a healer and would help me remain in health. The third being came forward energetically and seemed to represent strength. I was told by that being that it would help me remain strong. I thanked them and was back.